Category Archives: Letters to Morgan

  • 3 years old

    Posted on July 12, 2017 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan.

    Dear Morgan, What can I say? You are three. I can sometimes close my eyes and just imagine what kind of 3 year old you would be. Would you have dark hair like your sisters? Hazel eyes or blue? Would you be sneaky like Brooklyn or tom-boyish like Taylor? Or would you offer that “in-between” […]

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  • I miss you

    Posted on December 25, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan.

    Dear Morgan, It’s Christmas Eve. About 11pm. We have stuffed the stockings, wrapped the presents and Gavin and Dad are putting together Brooklyn’s new play kitchen. I miss you. Everything today reminded me that you are gone. I am trying to get into the holiday spirit, I really am. But it’s a bitter reminder that […]

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  • The second Halloween

    Posted on November 8, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Morgan, The girls missed you this Halloween, just like they did last year. They talk about you all the time – and they ask where you are. Especially Brooklyn. She was just 2 years old when  you passed away last year and she really, truly misses you. She rubs my belly and asks “is that […]

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  • 10 months away

    Posted on August 9, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan.

    Dear Morgan, It’s mommy again. Still here… still missing you. Today marks 10 months without you here. 10 months ago today we watched you unexpectedly slip away from us and go home. I remember those moments so vividly. It was as if I was standing there with you, watching the events take place. I was […]

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  • Happy First Birthday…in heaven

    Posted on July 12, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan.

    Dear Morgan, Oh that precious day, on year ago. When I saw you for the first time. When I kissed you and loved on you and heard you cry so loud. You. You are so loved. It was a whirlwind day – but those first few hours, when we knew nothing about your special heart. […]

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  • 11 months old

    Posted on June 12, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    11 months old today. Gosh… it seems so long ago. Like an eternity, really. I feel like it has been forever since I held you – yet I have the constant reminders of you each day. Like my thoughts of you, my “hello-I-have-birthed-4-babies” body, your big sister Brooklyn who says she misses you all the […]

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  • 8 Months and Counting

    Posted on June 9, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear Morgan, So we are planning your birthday. While we should be looking at cute little outfits, smash cakes, presents and things to brighten your day, we are looking at how to celebrate you but also thank those who were there for us when you were born, and when you were gone. I want to […]

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  • Missing you still

    Posted on May 27, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear Morgan, It’s incredible to me that I’ve survived you being gone for over 7 months now. How is that possible?  God I miss you. I know you see that I took your urn upstairs the other night. I missed having you next to me at night while we slept. It’s obviously not the same […]

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  • 6 Months ago today

    Posted on April 9, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear Morgan, A little after 2am six months ago today I woke up to your little cries, wanting a bottle and a diaper change. It was about 2:20 am six months ago today that I rushed over to you, lying on your blanket on the floor while I was making you a bottle to find […]

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  • 5 months without you

    Posted on March 9, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear Morgan, 5 months, 8 hours and 30 minutes ago you went into cardiac arrest. But who is counting? I certainly am… I miss you every moment of every day. I know you see me down here crying and missing you – and I know that you see that I’m hurt and angry with God for […]

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  • Happy 7 month Birthday!

    Posted on February 12, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear Morgan, I can’t believe 7 months ago today our lives were forever changed. It doesn’t seem like it’s been seven months since you entered this world, and four months since you left! I remember, like it was yesterday, how mad you were about coming into this world. You were so incredibly mad! That fighting […]

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  • Letter to Morgan: 3 months

    Posted on January 9, 2015 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear sweet princess, Today you have been gone for three months. That is longer than you were here on earth. In fact, two days ago, on 1/7, earmarks the day you were gone longer than you were here. It was a day I thought about for the past few weeks. Some days are really difficult […]

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  • 2 Months….

    Posted on December 9, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear Morgan, How is heaven? Mommy misses you so incredibly bad, sweet angel. So bad – it is mind crushing.  I want so bad to see you. To touch you. To smell you. To see you smile. To comfort you when you cry. To cuddle with you. To love on you. Today marks your two […]

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  • Letter to Morgan

    Posted on November 17, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear Morgan, You have been in heaven now for 39 days 11 hours and 6 minutes. How is it up there? Are you happy? Do you see us? Does Jesus hold you as much as mommy did? Do you miss me? I wanted to write to you today to say I’m sorry. I’m UNBELIEVABLY sorry baby […]

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