Yearly Archives: 2014

  • Ringing in 2015

    Posted on December 31, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    2014 was quite a year. It is pretty incredible if you think about it. Actually, it is quite fitting that I feel absolutely exhausted today, the last day of the most EXHAUSTING year of my life. Tonight we say goodbye to 2014 and hello to 2015. It is bittersweet. I don’t quite know how to […]

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  • Christmas Eve

    Posted on December 24, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    I don’t even know how to start this post. I’ll start with the positive side. We have so much to be positive about. We have three awesome kids who get to be with us. They get to make cookies, go to church, celebrate Jesus, and open presents… they get to experience the excitement of Christmas. […]

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  • CHD Sucks

    Posted on December 10, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    Another sweet angel gained his wings today. At 12:30pm EST superhero Isaac (https://www.facebook.com/zipupforisaac) went to be with Jesus. His fight was incredible. While I know in my heart that Isaac is now up with Morgan in heaven and received his complete healing from God, it makes me incredibly sad. I follow quite a few CHD […]

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  • 2 Months….

    Posted on December 9, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear Morgan, How is heaven? Mommy misses you so incredibly bad, sweet angel. So bad – it is mind crushing.  I want so bad to see you. To touch you. To smell you. To see you smile. To comfort you when you cry. To cuddle with you. To love on you. Today marks your two […]

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  • All over the place

    Posted on December 5, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    It has been so incredibly busy the past week. Between Thanksgiving, traveling for work and working on the foundation my head is spinning! We spent some time over the weekend trying to get the house cleaned up, getting a Christmas tree and just trying to get ahead. On Sunday I left for the Florida office […]

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  • Happy Thanksgiving

    Posted on November 27, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    This is my most favorite holiday. I love Thanksgiving. I love the smell of the turkey cooking, fresh rolls, stuffing…. all of it. I love picking up a paper first thing in the morning to spread out all the sale flyers for my overnight shopping trip, hunting for the best deals and mapping out my […]

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  • My brain is missing

    Posted on November 23, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    We have some pretty amazing friends. Every year, for the past 9 years, we have put on a pre-Thanksgiving Thanksgiving dinner. It is a full on Thanksgiving dinner where we invite our friends, because the actual Thanksgiving holiday we are usually busy with our families. To be honest with you, I really didn’t want to […]

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  • Letter to Morgan

    Posted on November 17, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear Morgan, You have been in heaven now for 39 days 11 hours and 6 minutes. How is it up there? Are you happy? Do you see us? Does Jesus hold you as much as mommy did? Do you miss me? I wanted to write to you today to say I’m sorry. I’m UNBELIEVABLY sorry baby […]

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  • Rant

    Posted on November 16, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    I spend so much energy trying to find the positive in everything that has happened over the past four months. Trying to push the foundation to help compensate that Morgan isn’t here. Trying to carefully balance emotions to be a good example for the kids. And trying to push through work every day and be […]

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  • Welcome to Holland

    Posted on November 15, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    I spent some time today cleaning out the HUGE stack (seriously… it was pretty bad) of papers on my desk that needed to be filed. It was a little bittersweet because a lot of the bills, documents and papers from Morgan’s hospital journey were in this stack… along with everything else that you would need […]

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  • One month ago…

    Posted on November 9, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    “A Minute in our Arms, Forever in our Hearts”                   So as of today it has been one month since my sweet Morgan passed away. It seems as though it has been an eternity. So much pain and sadness have been felt the past month. At times […]

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  • The ” other” kids

    Posted on November 8, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    One thing you never seem prepared for when you lose a child is how much extra energy you seem to need to now care for your other children. Tomorrow will mark one month since Morgan passed away, but it seems like the more days pass the more energy gets sucked from me. I thought it […]

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  • Trying to find a way to survive

    Posted on November 5, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    I’m desperately trying to stay busy. I really shouldn’t say “trying” because I’m so damned busy I’m slipping, tired and frustrated. It is one of the busiest times of year at work and I’m struggling to perform my best… and if I DO manage to focus and be productive everything else in my life slips because […]

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  • Rough…

    Posted on November 2, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    It was a rough day. Not going to lie. I felt off the moment I woke up. Just very sad and depressed. I couldn’t stop thinking of Morgan. I tried to shop with my friend (which I did, and sort of went through the motions). In the afternoon, after dropping Gavin off at a birthday party, […]

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  • Halloween

    Posted on October 31, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    I want to say Happy Halloween. But “happy” doesn’t exactly express what this day feels like. I’m really trying to exude happiness for our other kids – it’s not the easiest. I dove into work today to help distract me, but it’s been extremely difficult to focus. While I was productive, it wasn’t for very […]

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  • Attention other heart parents: Not looking to scare!

    Posted on October 29, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    So today, while driving back from taking the GMAT exam in Charlotte I made a quick stop at Levines to send a card and care package to a new heart family who’s baby just had surgery. When I read her story on Facebook I had mentioned she could read Morgan’s story but I realize that […]

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  • Ups and Downs

    Posted on October 28, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    It’s been 18 days. 18 days since Morgan’s little heart stopped. I miss her every second of every day. I think of her all the time. Sometimes I’m sad, other times I’m thinking of the amazing things she is inspiring through the 335 Heart Foundation and that makes me excited. But then I feel guilty about […]

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  • Another connection

    Posted on October 24, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    A few weeks ago – just after Morgan passed – one of our friends from Camp LUCK mentioned another heart baby, just a few months older than Morgan – passed away less than a month before Morgan did. The family was at the Baby LUCK event we went to and Jeff had even taken a photo of […]

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  • 335 Heart Foundation

    Posted on October 23, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

            Jeff and I are so excited things are coming together quickly for the 335 Heart Foundation! We have been blessed with a group of amazing people who are not only personally touched by Congenital Heart Disease, but who offer great experience to help form and make this foundation a success. It is […]

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  • Baptized!

    Posted on October 20, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    Sunday was a great day to continue to celebrate. In front of our family and friends Jeff and I were baptized! The experience with Morgan, as I’ve said many times before, has solidified our faith. While we aren’t perfect (who is?) we are ready to make the commitment to our faith and lead our children […]

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