Monthly Archives: November 2014

  • Happy Thanksgiving

    Posted on November 27, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    This is my most favorite holiday. I love Thanksgiving. I love the smell of the turkey cooking, fresh rolls, stuffing…. all of it. I love picking up a paper first thing in the morning to spread out all the sale flyers for my overnight shopping trip, hunting for the best deals and mapping out my […]

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  • My brain is missing

    Posted on November 23, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    We have some pretty amazing friends. Every year, for the past 9 years, we have put on a pre-Thanksgiving Thanksgiving dinner. It is a full on Thanksgiving dinner where we invite our friends, because the actual Thanksgiving holiday we are usually busy with our families. To be honest with you, I really didn’t want to […]

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  • Letter to Morgan

    Posted on November 17, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Letters to Morgan, Life after Death.

    Dear Morgan, You have been in heaven now for 39 days 11 hours and 6 minutes. How is it up there? Are you happy? Do you see us? Does Jesus hold you as much as mommy did? Do you miss me? I wanted to write to you today to say I’m sorry. I’m UNBELIEVABLY sorry baby […]

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  • Rant

    Posted on November 16, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    I spend so much energy trying to find the positive in everything that has happened over the past four months. Trying to push the foundation to help compensate that Morgan isn’t here. Trying to carefully balance emotions to be a good example for the kids. And trying to push through work every day and be […]

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  • Welcome to Holland

    Posted on November 15, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    I spent some time today cleaning out the HUGE stack (seriously… it was pretty bad) of papers on my desk that needed to be filed. It was a little bittersweet because a lot of the bills, documents and papers from Morgan’s hospital journey were in this stack… along with everything else that you would need […]

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  • One month ago…

    Posted on November 9, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    “A Minute in our Arms, Forever in our Hearts”                   So as of today it has been one month since my sweet Morgan passed away. It seems as though it has been an eternity. So much pain and sadness have been felt the past month. At times […]

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  • The ” other” kids

    Posted on November 8, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    One thing you never seem prepared for when you lose a child is how much extra energy you seem to need to now care for your other children. Tomorrow will mark one month since Morgan passed away, but it seems like the more days pass the more energy gets sucked from me. I thought it […]

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  • Trying to find a way to survive

    Posted on November 5, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    I’m desperately trying to stay busy. I really shouldn’t say “trying” because I’m so damned busy I’m slipping, tired and frustrated. It is one of the busiest times of year at work and I’m struggling to perform my best… and if I DO manage to focus and be productive everything else in my life slips because […]

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  • Rough…

    Posted on November 2, 2014 by Kristina Smith in Life after Death.

    It was a rough day. Not going to lie. I felt off the moment I woke up. Just very sad and depressed. I couldn’t stop thinking of Morgan. I tried to shop with my friend (which I did, and sort of went through the motions). In the afternoon, after dropping Gavin off at a birthday party, […]

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