This is my most favorite holiday. I love Thanksgiving. I love the smell of the turkey cooking, fresh rolls, stuffing…. all of it. I love picking up a paper first thing in the morning to spread out all the sale flyers for my overnight shopping trip, hunting for the best deals and mapping out my plan. I typically shop from around 10pm until 5am then sleep a few hours. Then I’m usually exhausted the remainder of Friday. But it is always worth it, because I get some awesome deals.
It is different this year. I still love it. But it is different. I’m quite a bit less excited, quite a bit more sad…. but I’m making it a point to be “into it” for the family. Mainly for the kids. I’m trying to have a bit more patience for them – I don’t know why it is so tough!
We are up at Jim and Susan’s for dinner this year. Their first year in North Carolina with us. We were driving up and were passed by an EMS ambulance. The flood of memories of that moment came back and overwhelmed me. Right as I felt like I was able to keep it together the ambulance zoomed by. I fought to hold back the tears but it was in vain… I managed to not completely lose it but just enough to look like a wreck when I got there. But my in-laws are pretty awesome and didn’t even notice my distress (or if they did they get it).
We are remaining pretty low key which is perfect. There is no way I would want to have a big production to deal with. I would have just stayed home. But this is perfect.
I do want to feel thankful – and I do – to have such wonderful family and friends who have been so unbelievably loving and supportive during such a stressful and devastating year. I am so thankful for a God who is so loving and supportive – who has helped us through disaster and helped us to see the way despite ourselves. It has been the toughest year of my life, and I’ve survived it better because of all this support and love. I am so thankful for this!